Wow!!!!!!
I can't believe the old blog is still here. Not that it ever amounted to much. Still, here I am again. Let me update as best I can in as few words as possible.
I've moved from Korea to Russia, and might possibly move back to the ROK again, haven't decided yet.
I've been having this ongoing crisis where I think my life doesn't mean anything. So a few nights ago I hit on some things I need so it does have meaning.
1) I need to produce something, a novel, screenplay, cheap film, art of some kind, ESL materials, whatever. The point it to create something lasting. Whether it is ever seen in public is not important. It's doing it that counts.
2) I need something to take care of, something that needs me in other words. A child or partner would be ideal, but even a pet would do for now. Hell, even a houseplant or a goldfish would count for something.
3) I need to perform acts of service for other people, to try and make the world a better place. I should be involved in a cause of some sort. I have some ideas about this, but I'll save that for another time.
So there's my declaration.
Today I had an opportunity to work on number three. When I finished my class today I noticed Tanya was in the office working on something. I hadn't expected to see her today because it is sort of a holiday. Turns out she was working on a project for her institute. I don't get it exactly, but as best as I can tell it's like a final thesis thing. It's a major requirement for graduation and it's like 100 pages or something. Well, so Murphy's law was in full effect today. Tanya only needed to print her work but the network was down today so she had no access to the printer. Right away I thought about offering her the use of my printer, but then I started thinking about what a pain it would be and how inconvenient, and how I'd get sucked into trying to figure out a bunch of little problems for her. Thankfully however, I remembered number three and realized this was my chance to put a least a little meaning into my day. So I sucked it up and told Tanya I'd help her. It went down like this: First I was going to use my ipod to transfer the file to my computer and print it at home. As it turned out she wasn't quite finished editing, also I knew there was no way my printer had enough ink to complete the job. Tanya sent her husband out to get a cartridge (750 rubles) and I went back home and just took my entire printer over to the office. This way she can work as late as she wants and I don't have to hang around. She hasn't called so I assume she was successful.
Ok, I realize I didn't exactly save the world today. All I'm trying to report is that I thought about someone other than myself and it was kinda nice.
There.
I can't believe the old blog is still here. Not that it ever amounted to much. Still, here I am again. Let me update as best I can in as few words as possible.
I've moved from Korea to Russia, and might possibly move back to the ROK again, haven't decided yet.
I've been having this ongoing crisis where I think my life doesn't mean anything. So a few nights ago I hit on some things I need so it does have meaning.
1) I need to produce something, a novel, screenplay, cheap film, art of some kind, ESL materials, whatever. The point it to create something lasting. Whether it is ever seen in public is not important. It's doing it that counts.
2) I need something to take care of, something that needs me in other words. A child or partner would be ideal, but even a pet would do for now. Hell, even a houseplant or a goldfish would count for something.
3) I need to perform acts of service for other people, to try and make the world a better place. I should be involved in a cause of some sort. I have some ideas about this, but I'll save that for another time.
So there's my declaration.
Today I had an opportunity to work on number three. When I finished my class today I noticed Tanya was in the office working on something. I hadn't expected to see her today because it is sort of a holiday. Turns out she was working on a project for her institute. I don't get it exactly, but as best as I can tell it's like a final thesis thing. It's a major requirement for graduation and it's like 100 pages or something. Well, so Murphy's law was in full effect today. Tanya only needed to print her work but the network was down today so she had no access to the printer. Right away I thought about offering her the use of my printer, but then I started thinking about what a pain it would be and how inconvenient, and how I'd get sucked into trying to figure out a bunch of little problems for her. Thankfully however, I remembered number three and realized this was my chance to put a least a little meaning into my day. So I sucked it up and told Tanya I'd help her. It went down like this: First I was going to use my ipod to transfer the file to my computer and print it at home. As it turned out she wasn't quite finished editing, also I knew there was no way my printer had enough ink to complete the job. Tanya sent her husband out to get a cartridge (750 rubles) and I went back home and just took my entire printer over to the office. This way she can work as late as she wants and I don't have to hang around. She hasn't called so I assume she was successful.
Ok, I realize I didn't exactly save the world today. All I'm trying to report is that I thought about someone other than myself and it was kinda nice.
There.
Labels: Deep introspection, Life in Moscow
